Me & My Thoughts

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angry, calm, Emotions, hate, last, me, mine, New year, privacy, rain, sad, Thoughts, Xmas, year

Only 2 more weeks for this year to end. I can’t beleive it’s over. I feel like last year xmas was like a month back or something.

I’m getting a little worried/scared on the side thinking about time. It never used to scare me and I always used to welcome every year with so much joy. For some reason I dont want this year to end. This year was not so special or important that I dont want it to end but still why am I feeling this way. I just can’t figure out why I’m little agitated. Is it because I’m getting old or is it because of the mere “thought” of responsibilities that might come on my way in the coming year/(s) or is it because of something else ???

I feel that there is some unfinished business left for me in this year. I don’t think I will be able to fix it in the next 2 weeks but hopefully it will be better next year. Actually this year was also good… not as much as last year… but still it was very good and I’m pretty sure it was better than most of the people in the world. Therefore, I don’t want to complain. If something went wrong this year then it was just because of my stupid mind and me. I felt little alienated even though I was around people most of the time. Isn’t it funny ‘coz you are not alone most the time but still you feel lonely at times.
Sometimes I wonder why people think too much about themselves & people around them. I have heard that few ppl can blank out their mind and be in that state. I wish if I could do that at times. I hate when there is a rush of thoughts especially with a lota ???????? for which I don’t have any answers. Is it just me??? lol I hope not :D…

I wrote another whole paragraph & just deleted it… I always wanted this to be a private blog so I could just write any gibberish I want to and not care about it. But I guess along the way I revealed my identity :P… no big deal… but still I have to watch my words… Its raining here… and I love watching it… it kinda calms me :)… so winding up w/ my crazy thoughts for now …

adios!!!!

Happy Valentines Day!!!

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day, diamonds, flowers, fun, him, love, me, set, special, together, Valentines

3 – 4 yrs back, Vday was just like any other day for me… but then it suddenly became special… coz that was the first time a guy (the special one) send me  roses (btw I loveeeeeeee flowers)  …  I called the guy and said thanks and i was going on and on about the flowers …

Him:  “well there was another package with it… didnt u get it..”…

Me: ehh… ahh.. yaaa a diamond ear ring set right… yea its cute… but listen those flowers are  ……
(he listened to me for the next 5 mins and then..)

Him: (bit disappointed)… I thought diamonds are girls’ best friends…

Me: is it??? really? Im not sure… they are definetly not mine… 😀

Him: wattttt… I will never buy anything for you…

then the discussion started there… and I told him I’m not too much into diamonds etc.. but now when I think about it, I should have appreciated it more. He was just a student at that time and it probably took a lot outa his pocket to get that for me..  The funny thing is that, I still have the set in my locker and I never wore it even once :D…

Happiness level just adds up when I recollect those memories from the past and realizing the present that the “guy” is my hubby now :)..

I just want to tell you all that  ” People who are meant to be together will always find their way. ”

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone 🙂

Hindi & I

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hindi, kerala, me, remya

Hindi is the national language of India but sadly I’m poor in the language  😦 . I studied Hindi for 3 yrs ( 5th, 6th and 7th) and then I choose Malayalam as my second language from 8th (the best part of being in ICSE). From l.k.g to 4th I studied in Kerala Syllabus, where they teach the basic Hindi alphabets at 5^th std.  Well my dad decided to place me in ICSE after 4^th. Now please don’t get started about the ICSE entrance examination (for a 10 yr old x-( ) and spoiling my summer time studying for that stupid exam L . Anyways, there they teach Hindi from 1^st std onwards.

I joined there with the knowledge of just the alphabets and they gave me a textbook where there are long stories and they require us to answer all the questions in the end of the chapter. Do I have to mention how horrible my days were?… Hindi teacher Ms. Sumangala was kind towards me in 5^th std. However, I didn’t really make much progress even after a year L. I could read a story and understand it but I couldn’t write an answer in my own words. So she started treating me like all the other kids and punished (mainly pinches) me when I got low grades. This made me hate Hindi more and more. Finally I passed 7^th with just “pass mark” for Hindi. When I went back to get my books for 8^th grade, they asked me which language would I prefer as my second language… well they didn’t even had to ask, coz looking at my grade sheet they kinda figured out my answer…  I hated hindi sooo  much (due to all the torture from the Ms.S) to a level where I didn’t even like to watch hindi movies or listen to hindi songs :P…  

I finished my 11^th in India and came to US with my family. Once I joined engineering, most of my friends were north Indians and Hindi was an unavoidable language L. Well I started watching Hindi movies, listening to hindi songs and even some serials.. Now my hindi is much better where I can understand dialogues but I still have problems speaking in Hindi :P.  

Actually, the reason why I said all the things above is because, I was watching VeerZaara and I loved the “Kyon Hawa” song. I googled for the lyrics and the english translation and loved the song even more. I want to put the lyrics and translation in my blog. Therefore, whoever like me who suffer from Hindi Phobia could understand what this song is all about…

Ok… that’s all for now… I will post the song with a different subject…

adios !!!!!