Mending a Relation … Contd..

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Emotions, feelings, hurt, life, relation, RJ

Continuation of Mending a Relation

Apparently, 5th time wasn’t the charm.

I don’t think I will be going back and initiating a conversation with RJ anytime soon. RJ had soo many ups and downs in the past 2 months and it was beyond the limit. RJ even asked me why the hell am I forcing to mend the relation again and again. I can’t even believe that this person had the nerve to say that. Looking from RJ’s perspective, it is me initiating conversations and it is me trying to fix things. RJ must be thinking that her/his life will be much better if I don’t exist in the picture. Whatever the reason is… enough is enough… I’m taking a break from all these relation stuff and going to let RJ go for the time being.

Hopefully coming new year I won’t feel like emailing again and being the “bigger” person…

If I do that and when I read this post, I will make sure to smack me!

adios!

 

Mending a Relation

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family, Friends, relation

I have a sibling type relationship with a person and lets call him/her “RJ”.

I’ve known RJ for almost 6 yrs now but the relationship was always rocky. We both wanted to be friends but then something weird will happen. In the beginning I used to wonder why this is the way it is.  Then I try to make myself understand that this is how it is always going to be. But every year, I feel like I can do something about this and I initiate a conversation/exchange of emails or something. In the past years, it will go on fine for few days and then everything goes back to square one. This year also I initiated the conversation and it is going well as of now. I’m hoping for this time it will go on fine. I’m happy that we are communicating but also scared that I might say something and ruin this.

One might wonder what is the need of putting effort into mending a relation that didn’t work in the past. But to my defense I would like to have RJ as part of my life. AB always warn me that it might stop after few days and that I need to be ready for it. He knows very well that I will get upset (like past years) if that happens again.

Hopefully 5th time is the charm!

Signing off!