Me & My Thoughts

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Only 2 more weeks for this year to end. I can’t beleive it’s over. I feel like last year xmas was like a month back or something.

I’m getting a little worried/scared on the side thinking about time. It never used to scare me and I always used to welcome every year with so much joy. For some reason I dont want this year to end. This year was not so special or important that I dont want it to end but still why am I feeling this way. I just can’t figure out why I’m little agitated. Is it because I’m getting old or is it because of the mere “thought” of responsibilities that might come on my way in the coming year/(s) or is it because of something else ???

I feel that there is some unfinished business left for me in this year. I don’t think I will be able to fix it in the next 2 weeks but hopefully it will be better next year. Actually this year was also good… not as much as last year… but still it was very good and I’m pretty sure it was better than most of the people in the world. Therefore, I don’t want to complain. If something went wrong this year then it was just because of my stupid mind and me. I felt little alienated even though I was around people most of the time. Isn’t it funny ‘coz you are not alone most the time but still you feel lonely at times.
Sometimes I wonder why people think too much about themselves & people around them. I have heard that few ppl can blank out their mind and be in that state. I wish if I could do that at times. I hate when there is a rush of thoughts especially with a lota ???????? for which I don’t have any answers. Is it just me??? lol I hope not :D…

I wrote another whole paragraph & just deleted it… I always wanted this to be a private blog so I could just write any gibberish I want to and not care about it. But I guess along the way I revealed my identity :P… no big deal… but still I have to watch my words… Its raining here… and I love watching it… it kinda calms me :)… so winding up w/ my crazy thoughts for now …

adios!!!!

Looking Back @ 2008

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Just like any other “working” day, I was having lunch and browsing through my favorite blogs. I found an interesting post in ART‘s blog where she had a list of main events that happened in this year. I got this idea (or I stole this idea… ) from her and thought I will also sum up the main things that happened in this year so far…

2006 & 2007 were filled w/ many bumps  and I couldn’t just wait for 2008. Let’s see how my year went:

January
Married the love of my life and had a great vacation in India.
Gained 4 lbs in 1 month ( I wonder what I ate in India) 😛

February
Got severe homesick especially when I started cooking (for the 1st time)
AB’s mom’s bday…

March
AB’s brother visited.

April
Bro’s 18th birthday. Missed him terribly
Celebrated our first onam together

May
Got few new good friends Annu , Deep, Smits, …
AB’s bro’s & parents wedding anniversary…

June
acha amma’s 25th wedding anniversary… I was not there 😦
AB’s parents visited

July
Took a trip to LA w/ AB’s parents

August
My parents visited.
I started my new job

September
Celebrated our first onam together w/ 2 other couples (Ann & Rosh)
Another onam lunch @ smit’s.
AB’s acha’s & sil’s bday
I get stuck w/ work politics

October
AB’s birthday
Started our poker night w/ couple of friends …
AB’s parents visit us again.
His dad gets the Marie E. Nyswander Award, which is given in recognition of lifetime accomplishments in advancing compassionate and humane treatment of patients suffering from pain.
Upset again about work politics

November
His parents went back to India.
AB leaves me for a 1 week conference. (I had fun though, thx to smits for taking me around 😀 )
My birthday 🙂
AB’s bro’s birthday
His best friends visit from TX & IL.
Another LA trip with them.
Annu’s wedding. We couldn’t attend, but really happy for them 😦
Upset again about work politics

December
Stared my blog for the 2nd time after a 2 yr break 🙂
Paid off my student loan (uff finally loan free)
Work started getting better
East Coast trip to visit my parents & college friends for xmas.

Looking back, yes 2008 was a good year for me unlike 07 & 06. I didn’t have big troubles through out the year instead I had a lot of happy moments to keep in my memory. Thank God!!!

For all those who had a troublesome 2008… don’t worry, let’s hope that 2009 will bring lot of happiness & smiles…

Happy Holidays!!!

Wishing you & yours a Merry Christmas.

Signing off from West Coast!